So This is What 40 Feels Like?
Is that a rogue black hair growing out of my chin? Where the hell did it come from and how did it get so long? I spoke those words out loud the other day, as I was on my way to my ball game. It happened to be one of those beautifully sunny days, where the sun just happens to fall perfectly …. right on your chin hair!
Now desperately trying to pull it out with my fingers before I get to ball. I realize I am just making this chin hair longer and … CURLY!
This is just one of those I am 40ish moments I have every day. Don’t get me wrong, I do love 40, but and it’s a big butt (no that’s not a spelling error) my whole body is changing even my butt. The aches, pains, chin hair, wrinkles, etc… seemed to have crept up on me. It feels almost as if it happened overnight. Wasn’t I just 30?
When did I turn into an emotional freak, some close friends might argue, when I was born. Seriously, I can’t control my tears these days. I cry because I am happy, sad, angry, hungry … or just because my 40-year-old mind feels like it. Recently I was at a friend’s wedding. The day after the wedding, we stayed for a pool party. As I was sitting in my pool lounger, watching everyone have fun, a wonderful feeling came over me; I was so content. Feeling very happy. So, 40 decided to kick in, and I started sobbing uncontrollably. Thank goodness my sunglasses and the chlorinated water masked these crazy emotions. I quickly stood up and dove into the pool to wash away my tears. Phew! Disaster averted.
As if that’s not enough, let’s talk about sleeping. When did I turn into a sweatbox? Why is it that I can’t go to sleep and wake up as my old 30-year-old self, dry. I sweat to the point of soaking my bed sheets almost every night. Sounds fun, right? Clearly, that is sarcasm. You know who loves it less than me? My partner. I am getting a little tired of the “Woah! Babe! You are soaked” comments as he rolls over to greet me in the morning. Not to mention the habitual washing of the sheets!
I get all the positive things about 40; I really do. I am embracing them and enjoying every minute that I pee a little when I jump on the trampoline with my kids. It’s just a strange new place some days.
Just Alyssa writes 17 Awesome Things about 40. She is correct, there are many amazing things about being 40, but as Women we reserve the right to bitch a little about our ever so changing bodies. I mean really, we have had to deal with some sort of hormonal changes since we first got our period. To be honest, the way my pre-menopausal brain has been working lately, I am sure my mood will shift, and I will be writing about all the amazing things about 40.
Until then I will be sweating in my bed, crying over spilled milk, peeing a little when I jump or run, pulling rogue hairs from my chin and doing extra squats for my ever changing butt.
This post originally appeared on Darla’s site.
Darla Halyk is the Mom of a Teenage boy and Tween Girl. She studied Business Management at Simon Fraser University. Soon after receiving her Degree, she married and quickly got pregnant with her first child. Deciding to stay home with her kids instead of returning to the workforce after the birth of her son, she become an SAHM, but not your average one. The gig lasted until the kids were school-aged, and her marriage ended in Divorce.
Darla has enjoyed writing since she was old enough to hold a pen to paper. Currently, she writes for her blog at NewWorldMom. Bringing a fresh, honest and humorous take on parenting, women’s issues, relationships, divorce, and life, in general.
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